Don’t lose sight of yourself. You are different for a reason. Take a look around you, even if you have a twin, you are still different. And that’s the beauty of it. Myeloproliferative Neoplasm (MPN) is a chronic blood cancer. It used to be just a disorder or a disease, but when they found out … Continue reading One step at a time
Remember this is a diary entry, the feelings and emotions are raw! If I hurt you, I’m sorry. I’m just ranting. I hate this body right now. It is defective and expensive. When you thought you are all feeling great and strong, then suddenly you get weak and sick. I’ve only missed two days of … Continue reading Diary Entry: I’m tired
I pushed myself beyond my limit. I don’t even know if that is wise. I was physically exhausted. My legs were shaking, my ears were ringing, and I was to the point of dehydration. But, I have set my eyes on a goal, to reach the top, and nothing can stop me. The hardest part … Continue reading Angels Landing
Unfortunately, platelets are still elevated. Hopefully, as weeks go by, it will go down. Honestly, my symptoms are adding. I had severe night sweats last night and my chest continues to ache. It is not severe, but it is there. I am just trying to ignore it, try to eat healthy and exercise. The concerning … Continue reading Week one of Chemo
When I see you cancer, I will roar like a dinosaur because I do not fear you! I have blood test tomorrow to check if the chemodrugs are working. Hopefully, we got some good news. I will have a busy month And I still have to schedule Cardiologist, and ENT Doctor. So far, that’s what … Continue reading Busy Month
Depressed? Stress? Anxious? Or even to the point of suicidal? Hey, life is real. I am not judging because I’ve been there, and I’ve learned ways to cope. The future of healing is possible. However, it is an adventure, and it is up to you if you want to take it. This is my Ten … Continue reading My Ten Ways to Heal a Broken Heart, Mind, and Soul
“Ber” months… it means the year is almost over. 2 vacations in; Hawaii and Cancun. And yet, Philippines is still my number one place to go. Philippines this year? Maybe? I enjoy travelling because it has become my time for tranquility. New people to meet, new places to explore, and moments that are worth remembering. … Continue reading My moments
“How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.” – Winnie the Pooh As the years go by, I am learning to say goodbye. I am blessed that I had an outstanding therapist that provided great assistance on how to cope well with goodbyes. Recently, I went through another month long … Continue reading Meet me
Crush is a funny word. Its literal meaning is “romantic attraction that is somewhere short of love” – something short-lived and superficial. But buried in the word’s etymology is somewhat contradictory sense of intensity, of something pressing or grinding (and even a sense of violence if you consider the word’s original meaning, which included a … Continue reading Sayonara & Hello
It is okay to not be okay. It is okay to be sad. It is okay to feel pain. It is okay to cry. And, it is okay to get upset. I will go against to the usual post in social media. No food, no selfie, no highlights, but a raw unattended feeling of reality. … Continue reading Diary Entry: The Road Ahead
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