A pencil needs to go through a sharpener in order to become useful. One has to go through hurt and pain to achieve a new level of realization. We call those experiences, however, overcoming them is not something easy. They say, “the older, the wiser.” It means old people have more experiences, thus they are … Continue reading Overcoming Hurt
Don’t lose sight of yourself. You are different for a reason. Take a look around you, even if you have a twin, you are still different. And that’s the beauty of it. Myeloproliferative Neoplasm (MPN) is a chronic blood cancer. It used to be just a disorder or a disease, but when they found out … Continue reading One step at a time
Remember this is a diary entry, the feelings and emotions are raw! If I hurt you, I’m sorry. I’m just ranting. I hate this body right now. It is defective and expensive. When you thought you are all feeling great and strong, then suddenly you get weak and sick. I’ve only missed two days of … Continue reading Diary Entry: I’m tired
Update regarding my health. Thank you for all the prayers. I hope I can bring good news, sadly, I will do my best to stay positive. The chemo pill, Hydroxyurea, is not working. It is actually causing my body to deteriorate and raising other problems and side effects. I have now mouth sores on both … Continue reading Health Update
Unfortunately, platelets are still elevated. Hopefully, as weeks go by, it will go down. Honestly, my symptoms are adding. I had severe night sweats last night and my chest continues to ache. It is not severe, but it is there. I am just trying to ignore it, try to eat healthy and exercise. The concerning … Continue reading Week one of Chemo
Depressed? Stress? Anxious? Or even to the point of suicidal? Hey, life is real. I am not judging because I’ve been there, and I’ve learned ways to cope. The future of healing is possible. However, it is an adventure, and it is up to you if you want to take it. This is my Ten … Continue reading My Ten Ways to Heal a Broken Heart, Mind, and Soul
“How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.” – Winnie the Pooh As the years go by, I am learning to say goodbye. I am blessed that I had an outstanding therapist that provided great assistance on how to cope well with goodbyes. Recently, I went through another month long … Continue reading Meet me
Dear Suicide, You do not control me. I will not give that power so you can dictate my actions. I know that you were a big part of my life. You pretended to be my friend. During my darkest days, you acted like you care by lying to me. You told me that death was … Continue reading Dear Suicide
Praying is essential in Christian life. However, there was a time when I needed to do more; I asked for help. I have a heart for people with mental illness. I can’t compare my situation with others because mental illness varies with people. For some, it can be a lifetime battle. Some are getting better, … Continue reading When I did more than just pray
Reminder: This is a diary entry. It is what I feel at the moment. If it encourages you, I am grateful. I have mistrust/abuse and abandonment issues. When something traumatic happens at a very young age, the young developing mind tries to understand something that is hard to comprehend so the brain develops maladaptive coping … Continue reading Diary Entry: Abuse and Abandonment Issues
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