Provider's Hands, Heart, and Mind

Helping Hand. Loving Heart. Thoughtful Mind.

A pencil needs to go through a sharpener in order to become useful. One has to go through hurt and pain to achieve a new level of realization. We call those experiences, however, overcoming them is not something easy. They say, “the older, the wiser.”…

Overcoming Hurt

Today marks one year of my diagnosis with Myeloproliferative Neoplasm. I am still amazed how one simple blood test can alter one’s journey. It started with an abnormal elevated number of blood platelets. Normal range is 150,000 to 370,000 per microliter of blood. I had…

Be a Lighthouse

This is an emotional, unedited, and raw entry of what I’m feeling. If I hurt you, I’m sorry. Three weeks working from 6:00AM to sometimes 6:00PM. An hour or so break means an hour nap in between. I can already feel my body weakening. I…

Diary Entry: My hope in Christ

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Don’t lose sight of yourself. You are different for a reason. Take a look around you, even if you have a twin, you are still different. And that’s the beauty of it. Myeloproliferative Neoplasm (MPN) is a chronic blood cancer. It used to be just…

One step at a time

Remember this is a diary entry, the feelings and emotions are raw! If I hurt you, I’m sorry. I’m just ranting. I hate this body right now. It is defective and expensive. When you thought you are all feeling great and strong, then suddenly you…

Diary Entry: I’m tired

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WARNING SPOILERS AHEAD Minsan lang ako kiligin, maiyak, at mabigyan ng review ang isang Filipino movie. “Hello, Love, Goodbye,” is definitely a movie to remember. The last time na sobrang napangiti ako sa kilig ng isang Filipino movie ay, “My Ex and Whys.” Tinapatan at…

Hello, Love, Goodbye [Movie Review]

Marami ako pagsisi. Sa totoo lang, nang malaman kong may cancer ko, nag-iba ang aking pananaw. Syempre, kailangan ko magpalakas, at makinig sa mga payo ng mga doktor. Pero, nasaktan ako ng nalaman ko may sakit ako, at baka di na rin ako magtagal, dahil…

Kung alam ko lang

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I pushed myself beyond my limit. I don’t even know if that is wise. I was physically exhausted. My legs were shaking, my ears were ringing, and I was to the point of dehydration. But, I have set my eyes on a goal, to reach…

Angels Landing

Update regarding my health. Thank you for all the prayers. I hope I can bring good news, sadly, I will do my best to stay positive. The chemo pill, Hydroxyurea, is not working. It is actually causing my body to deteriorate and raising other problems…

Health Update

What caused your cancer? GENE MUTATION – A gene called JAK2 mutated in my bone marrow. The purpose of the gene is to signal my cells to produce blood cells; red blood cells, white blood cells, and blood platelets. When it mutates, it keeps developing…

God is in control