Isa sa mga ayaw ko ang ma-disappoint. Hindi sa ibang tao kundi sa sarili ko. May mga ibang tao na binibigyan nila ang sarili nila ng napakataas na standards, kaya nadidisappoint sila. Pero ako, nadididisappoint ako kasi parang hindi iyong ginagawa ko. Parang nakokontento na ako sa ginagawa ko, kahit alam kong marami akong pwede … Continue reading [Tagalog Diary] Disappointment
I wrote this lyric unbeknownst that I was writing the masked pain that I was dealing with in my high school year. It was my junior year, when my symptoms of PTSD and Depression started occurring. There were reasons why I was so emotional during my High School years. The line, “sa dami-dami ng kasalanang … Continue reading Kailangan Ko’y Ikaw – The Meaning behind the Lines
“Am I sick because of COVID-19 or my blood is just acting up?” I asked myself. Having a Myeloproliferative Neoplasm (MPN) during COVID times is quite scary. My first experience was during the beginning of the pandemic around March. It took three days, just high fever, body ache, and chills, then it went away. Then, … Continue reading Health Update: MPN during the Pandemic
I recently discovered this Filipino band, “The Juans,” this month and I already know they are worth listening. First, I heard “Hindi Tayo Pwede,” it was so painful and yet good. The lyrics are so powerful because the writer is making a point that it is about forced love. We tend to love someone because … Continue reading Why You Should Listen to “The Juans”
Para sa mga taong gusto lunurin ang sarili sa mga super sad love song. 5. Itutulog Na Lang by The Juans “Sana’y pagsapit ng umaga’y mawala naAng sakit na dinulot ng ‘yong paglisan” Magsimula tayo sa sobrang sakit na kanta ng The Juans. Alam natin na minsan gusto mo na lang itulog ang sakit pero … Continue reading Limang Kanta Para sa mga Broken Hearted
Maswerte ang mga taong mabilis makalimut. Ang mga taong madaling maka-move on. Ang mga taong pagkatapos masaktan ay malakas bumangon. Sana ganun din ako. Subalit, kahit ilang beses kong sabihin, “eto na,” ako ay hanggang salita lang. Mayroon mga good memories, mga bagay bagay na nakaraan na natutuwa ka lalo na kapag pinag-uusapan ng mga … Continue reading Kakalimutan na Kita
2020 is really not the year. This week has just been crazy. Bad news from left to right. Several people that I know passing away to someone that I care losing a job. My mind has been acting up. I’ve been having PTSD symptoms again. That is why, I’ve been to the beach this whole … Continue reading Diary Entry: Mental Battle
I wonder what good things will come out of this Covid-19 pandemic? Are we all going to be experts on several things such as making tiktok clips, creating youtube videos, uploading online sermons, zoom meetings, and probably hoarding toilet papers? Are we going to be healthier, better ourselves when we are sick, and become masters … Continue reading David and Goliath: Pandemic Edition
They say that most New Year’s Resolutions end on February. One starts on January, revitalized, ready to change, plans on new things, but eventually one get stuck from the same routine, same lifestyle, and no plans at all by the end of February. 2019 has been a roller coaster ride for me. When, I thought … Continue reading Sit and relax, you made it.
Instead of the flood of emotions that I had been expecting, I felt nothing but a void in my heart. I have been staring at this page for so long, don’t know how to start. Happy? Sad? Angry? Stress? Apathy? I do not want to blame anybody, I do not want to blame anything. I … Continue reading Diary Entry: Overparked Emotions
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